My biggest fear is having this child and something happening to me or Garret. We've had to talk about wills and who we would want to raise our children and it's this huge complicated thing. Because I would never leave my child willingly, so the idea of having no choice is terrifying.
It makes me so angry at people who walk away from their kids for selfish reasons. I just don't get it. And if you're gonna walk away, then walk the hell away and don't complicate their lives by trying to have a part with no responsibility. That sort of person is so low in my eyes.
So much swirling in my head right now. I started this blog to keep G up with the baby as well as eventually to print it out for our child to have. I know that we'll have little failures in our parenting, but we're both planning to strive to really truly raise a child who knows without a doubt that they are loved, valued, and that we care about their feelings and opinions. Parisienne Farmgirl wrote such an excellent post on listening to your children that I read it aloud to G over skype. And we discuss things like the morals and qualities we hope to instill in our children, how hard it will be, but how very important it is to raise that sort of child.
Preparing for all of this has put me in a different state of mind. G feels the same. Suddenly poor parenting decisions stand out even more to us. And when I see a parent out in public parenting well I want to applaud them. It won't be easy, but seeing children who behave well and are kind makes me think that it's worth the strife.